Books & publicity

I haven't posted in awhile, its been a whirl wind of happenings here, I have started my own site, and I tend to post most things over there now.

I was going through my rss feeder today and I realized that there are a lot of good books out there that are just not getting enough of a push. By push I mean really any at all.
That's sad when you think about it.
Books are one of the things that make all the difference in this world. Can you imagine how empty this world would be with out books?

How different would you be had you not read your favourite book so many times you wore out the cover?

But we would be kidding ourselves if we think for one second money and the books subject matter don't influence what gets promoted and what doesn't.

Sad when you think about it, because it's pretty much the same with everything and not just books.
Really great news and discoveries in science, sub sciences, etc get back burners to things like celebrity gossip and which ones having the daily break down and ending up sentenced to jail time.

It's time for a change...
It's time for me to start plotting the next idea.

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Its funny how one odd reaction can just take away any courage you had to talk about something that was an issue.
Now I am back to being clamped up and thinking about something over and over and over until i feel like my head just might pop off.

Its not like the situation revolving around why i got the weird look is anything I can control either.
everyone that knows me knows I am disabled, not badly as I do most everything for myself but i do have a cane and a chair..

A chair that came into view tho not while i was in it, and i realized the person with me was trying to pretend he never saw it, and said nothing.
I was too blown away when it happened to react but now that Im alone and rethinking it, im wondering how they can say they love me yet get uncomfortable like that.

It's not like its going to be something that goes away.
If that's going to be an issue so is anything that I was going to say now.
So i stay silent and wonder.

Discrimination

i haven't been writing as much as I would like to but, its my own doing I guess.
I came across this in my catching up with blogs/email and to put it mildly its upsetting, I completely understand where she is coming from, due to events very similar to that in my own life.

I really try not to talk bad about people but that old goat should be smacked.
I can not stand intolerance, discrimination or hate.. there is absolutely no place for it, whatsoever.
Despite what we look like, how we dress, what race, gender or religion we are, we are all the same.

Its a shame that people are like that still in 2010, you'd think that people would have a better clue.
whatever happened to treat people how you want to be treated?

Falling behind..

My priorities got all messed up again and I am just resurfacing once more from all of it.
Slowly but surely.
I had a update in my inbox from a blog I follow on another site this morning, I thought it might be good to share.
Its part of a lecture given about the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon Him.
It really makes me think, especially since I just got up from having my priorities all messed up.

Thankfully if nothing else I noticed and now I can start to fix that and get back on track.
I am hoping that I havent missed the chance to do something I was really looking forward to because I fell into another vicious Bipolar cycle.

Normally I'd be on a rant about how sick I am of dealing with that but after watching the video it dealt me a big mouthful of reality and I remember now that it could be a lot worse.
We don't get hands dealt to us that Allah doesn't know, we can deal with, with enough effort.

Which is, I think where most people fail. Effort. People have gotten lazier has things get more and more convenient. Myself included.

Even my reading has fallen very behind so I can say honestly I am not the most proud of myself right now. But it will get better.

Starting now.

I am still alive.. lol

I've been terrible at updating lately there has just been so much to keep up with, in terms of life, and reading and trying to get some articles done for a position that i really really want.

Right now I am reading "Everything Everyone Should Know About The Qur'an" sort of a lighter reading because I have been feeling so frazzled.

Not to mention kinda blah because I am overly sick of being single. I had one prospect but I already know their are just things about the others life that will never click despite how well we may get along or despite what he thinks he feels for me.

Dating him would be like going back to highschool and that's just not where I am at this point in my life.

I am starting to think that the nice, Muslim man with a geeky side to him doesn't exist, leaving me to play the part of the crazy cat lady in the future lol.
I was looking at some online dating sites but they are just horrible, or there is next to no one local.

Where do people meet like mnded people cuz I seem to be drawing blanks lol.
Oh well..
If its meant to happen it will.
Until then I just focus on what I am doing and trying to find places for all the books i need to store lol.

Educational systems are failing.

What I have learned this week:

That my own country is guilty for not teaching history any better then the USA is by editing their text books to make themselves look like the hero in every chance they get.

I have been on this writing thing for awhile and its taking a lot more history background then i thought at first and it has caused me to realize that there is a lot that I just do not know.

It's making me angry, at our educational system. I feel like i was completely ripped off.
I took history every year, by choice because I loved it so much and here I am noticing that they only put in a very small fraction and by small i would say 1% of history was world history and i don't mean current.

Most of our history was Canadian, USA and Britain..which I get but there is so much more out there then just those three friggen countries.

Frustrating after having your eyes opened like that.

Struggle of faith

I'm struggling lately, it's with my faith but not directly. My belief hasn't waviered I still believe that the Quran is the book. It's just motivating myself to live the life I should be, I feel so bogged down and I shouldn't. My faith should make me feel stronger. At peace, shouldn't it?

I feel like I should be looking to the Quran for answers but don't know where to look.